TODAY IS A NOSTALGIA TRIP

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The city is under a cloud bank and there’s a breeze that reminds me of a bike ride 5 years ago where a friend and I were racing against time to make it on time for a movie.


It looks like the skies will pour at any moment and it takes me back to a dimly lit classroom where my professor stood at the helm and spoke of the Mughal warriors that ruled the lands. She walked from one end of the classroom to another, her saree swishing back and forth but her tone, her voice, and her words held all my attention. She weaved triumph, loss, conniving cruelty, war, and glory around us like a spell that could only be broken if she wished it to be.


The breeze holds the fragrance of the earth, the rain falls in rivulets outside, and the soft light that streams in through the floor to ceiling windows takes me back to school. This was the same breeze that playfully ruffled our skirts and chased goosebumps down our arms.


It was under this weather that we sat in the field for lunch, near a grotto and dreaded the next hour of chemistry. We gathered from different sections of the same class and laughed and shared and lived.


Maybe a few years down the lane, this same weather, the cloud bank, the muted light, and the breeze with a hint of rain will remind me of an office I sat in with a wall of glass and the prettiest of views.

 

Maybe one day we will meet through my words again.

And maybe you will remember and so will I.


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